wow. woke up today, turned on my pc. logged in to my wp account. only to find out that it was already different. surprises of life, you’ll never know when.

woke up today, eyes are hurt. looked for my eye drops but too bad, can’t find it. started to wear my glasses (which i really really hate doing) only to find out that i need a new pair (which means that i’ll lose money again).

woke up today, in the mood for teaching my sis, only to find out that she won’t bother listening and also in the mood on talking back at me.

then i realized, could’ve been better if i just didn’t wake up. i could’ve just slept and pretended to be dreaming.

guess i could use working 7 days a week. more money. less problems. less bad moods. less fights.

i have lss. and i hate it.

when i’m done with thinking, then i’m done with you.
when i’m done with crying, then i’m done with you.
when i feel so tired, then i’m done with you.
everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way -

and i do.
you can’t hear it, but i do.
you can’t hear it, but i do.

you’re trying to convince me that what i’ve done’s not right.
i get so frustrated, i stay up every night.
you ask me for an answer, and i’m so tired and i’m up in the air.
everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way -

and i do.
you can’t hear it, but i do.
you can’t hear it, but i’m feeling this way
just because you say

i will be ignored.
i will be denied.
i could be erased.
i could be brushed aside.
i will get scared, and i will get shoved down,
but i feel like i do beause you push me around.

i’m starting to ignore you, i’ve doubted you so long.
i’m tired of over-thinking, i know you don’t belong.
now i’m asking questions – no one pushes me around.
everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way -

and i do.
you can’t hear it, but i do.
you don’t seem angry, but i do.
i do.